★Beginning★
It all started in childhood. From childhood, I was too thin and disproportionate.
This affected my self-esteem, and soon I began to notice
other little things about my appearance.
Prepuberty
As I matured and entered adolescence,
I began to notice that I felt insecure in public
and couldn't look at myself in the mirror or on someone else's camera lens.
This was due to my dissatisfaction with my own body and face.
Since adolescence, I was diagnosed with "rickets."
This is a disease in which the body lacks building material
for bone/cartilage formation due to low levels of vitamin D and calcium.
This led to a deformed chest.
Adolescence
At 13, I began to realize something was wrong with my face.
A big nose, a reccesed jaw, bags under my eyes, a big forehead, pimples.
This is the first thing about my appearance that I started to consider unattractive.
Around 16, I became familiar with a topic called "Looksmaxxing."
Gradually, I began to delve deeper into this topic, developing a growing interest in it.
Researching the topic of jaws further, I decided to check my bite.
It turned out I had a severe overbite with a crooked spee and a severe degree of occlusal deviation.
A little later, I learned that my jaws were very narrow. Around this time, I began actively using
Some methods, such as Mewing and Chin Tucks, and I also joined a gym, which helped a little.
At 17, a year after I corrected my tongue position in my mouth, I began analyzing my results.
It turned out to be zero. I spent days and nights reading about appearance and came across the topic
CWW Rotation - it stated that appearance depends directly on biomechanics and muscles.
It turned out that my posture was Cooked. I began correcting my neck protraction, relieving tension in my pectoral muscles.
I chewed with my premolars and performed acupressure on my masseter muscles, protruding shoulder blades, and asymmetrical trapezius muscles.
Age 17-18
Desperately trying to correct my face, I did exercises and maintained my posture for 12 months.
Every day I took photos, comparing them to my baseline, and every day I was disappointed to see no progress.
Before
After
1 Years difference
After
1 Years difference
Not seeing results, I started researching braces, MARPE/MSE, and the HeadGear Face Mask. Then I realized that perhaps
This was my salvation, but after looking at the price of these devices in my country, I fell into despair. After a couple of weeks
I needed to let off some steam, so I just cried in my room, thinking that nothing would help me anymore( >.< )
Now
So we've reached the present time. After I broke down emotionally, I started looking for...
methods to get money, since I pay for the apartment, food, and everything else myself. I couldn't find any methods. I couldn't find the money for treatment.
I couldn't find the money for treatment at the orthodontist's. At one point, I came across a post about a girl who had committed suicide because she hated her own appearance.
Honestly, I burst into tears at that moment, but I realized which direction I needed to take...
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